Listening to Trina's "If you change your mind" and India Arie's "Heart of the matter" while reading old blog entries transported me back. I didn't want to remember but I guess there are just some things we can never really forget. Don't get me wrong, I am fine. It's just that remembering made me feel the pain once more. It doesn't hurt as much but still, it stung.. I remembered how I loved the person, to fault but then again, I guess it wasn't enough. I would never understand what went wrong or when things started going downhill nor do I have the patience to at least try to. Over analyzing would just make me lose whatever marbles I have left.
For the record, I already forgave the person.. and it's not as if I can't forget.. if we're being honest, there are things we want to completely forget and remove from our system but we just can't. It was a heartbreak to the soul. When everything finally ended, he took with him a big chunk of me- a piece of my heart that never fully recovered..
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