ink and another "almost" bout of tears

Early this year, I thought I finally found my place under the sun. As the months dragged on, the euphoria I felt dimmed with time.. Lots of things happened making me realize I still have a long way to go before I can fully go back to how I was once.

To add salt to the wounds that barely healed, there was this person who somehow showed me not to be afraid to take the risk so I did.. How incredibly stupid of me.. Why do you ask? it took me two years to convince myself that the person I used to know is just one man and does not represent all men.. Then this chap comes along to fuck things up yet again for me.. What took two years to convince myself took all of 5 minutes to unconvince.

Never did I fully understand the ordeal those girls went through until today. I may sound like one of those walking cliches that roam the Earth but really, I did not know that the crafty old bugger is taken.. Seriously, the dude is one smooth motherfucker..

Oh no.. you assume wrong (assuming that you, yes you, is assuming anything) I am way above the others.. Simply put, the moment I found out, I left- figuratively, that is, seeing how we don't live under the same roof..

Limbo is not my favorite place and being in it is hell.. Imagine my surprise when I found out.. My first attempt back into the murky dating pool of singles is a dismal failure.

I felt like shit (not really.. If anything, it's for lack of a better word).. I should've spotted the possible trouble a mile away but I didn't.. Ha bloody ha.. Guess I just have to experience yet another frog :)

I've made some poor decisions in life and really, there's nothing more I can do about it but to stand by it, rectify what I can, and charge to experience what I can't.

Anyway, moving along..